I was home when my husband arrived with a female visitor. She was a classmate in the province and now a residing in U.S. She has a long blond curly hair, fair complexion, brown eyes, thin lips and quite
chubby... curvaceous, big breast, curvy hips.
I really don’t know the details how they meet at this time but i guess it must be Facebook (as always). Anyways they were talking about some letters in the table which my husband said ( in a smile and teasing way) in a very modulated voice, “you should have taken those letters with you when you left, see you won’t find it here anymore”. She answered, with that killer smile and that fluttering eyelashes. (Darn i should get that kind of eyelash extension!) “for real? awww that’s bad what was written in it anyway?”
I was trying to be cool, ignoring those flirting signs and intentions knowing that my hubby will not (I repeat “NO WAY!!) fall on those tricks. He introduced that woman to me and my daughter and though she extended her hands I could feel her eyes focused on my hubby (
i’m sure she’s drooling over him). My daughter asked her father something and the two of them walked towards the kitchen. He excused himself to her (I don’t know her name) and head on with my daughter.
So it was just between me and that woman. So I asked her if she has been to the province (Quirino) and asked her a few names..
tracking down her rootsShe mentioned names former batchmates of my husband, a few kababayan and several close friends. We are chatting well and she said that I must be lucky to have my husband. I smiled and said “He is lucky to have me!
She smiled and said, you know
name ?isn’t he married to name?
“Yeah, I think so, why?” I said.
Without batting an eyelash, she said, “She should have married someone else and maybe
she and Louieand it could have been me and Anthony..
What? I was looking at her my mouth agape.. What the hell is it that you want? You have met me, my children and for pete’s sake aren’t you ashamed of what you are saying? He is married now, and I am the WIFE do you want me to spell it loud to you? Isn’t it clear enough? You have no space in his life now, I won’t allow and will never allow until my last breath! You belong to the past and no space in his future!!
My voice raisedI shouted and said Leave my husband alone! I could feel my heart beating fast I know that i could kill her right then and there. My temperature rising, my knees are shaking.. what is she thinking?I threw my hands in the air, I could kill her with my bare hands, tear her apart piece by piece and give it the the dogs. But I ran to my husbands arm and told him what she told me. He went to asked her ” why would you say that? I love my wife and family I will never leave them.
Its ok I am not asking you to leave, can’t we just share?
I could feel my body shaking uncontrollably. It was then, I realized that it was just a dream, I reached for my husband and hugged him tightly. It was raining cats and dogs outside, the cold breeze inside the room made me shiver to the bones. Wait, was it all just dreams? It seems too real. Where is that whore? No its not real, it was just a dream. I am dreaming Wake up girl! wake up!
Still, that dream haven’t left my mind, leaving no stone unturned. What is it that I fear? Why would I dream that dream? Who is that woman on my dream? I could just leave it and let it go, but there’s something in it that pushes its way back on my conscious mind. So many questions, what is my unconscious mind telling me? Was it just a product of my wild imagination? An insecurity manifesting in dreams? Or am I sensing some imminent danger?
Help me, share your thoughts. I know that there is an answer to all of these…
Those dreams that on the silent night intrude, and with false flitting shapes our minds delude … are mere productions of the brain. And fools consult interpreters in vain.
JONATHAN SWIFT, On Dreams
- Dreams Maybe Clues From Our Unconscious (dranilj1.wordpress.com)
- Lucid Dreaming Techniques (mademan.com)